Journal Entry for Wednesday, May 25, 2016

I failed to mention that I had a free food fest here at work on Tuesday.  After I had lunch at home, filled with a piece of chicken and a piece of steak, I snagged a Chick-Fil-A sandwich from the Newsroom.  It was free, good, delicious, and I could not pass it up.  I could have easily taken a second sandwich, but I didn't want to get greedy.  I wanted to leave something for my fellow co-workers in case someone didn't get one before I did.

This morning, I picked up Ben and Blake and got them ready for the day.  I fed them their respective bottles of milk and formula, and I changed their diapers after that.  I get to sing each one of them a 'clean diaper' song.  I hope it makes them laugh and makes them feel good.  I love to see and hear them laugh.  I love to see each one of their 'million dollar smiles.'  Those warm my heart.

I felt bad that I wasn't fully focused on playing with my two boys.  I did it to myself, but I was distracted by what I wanted to see on my iPhone, Kindle Fire, and my TV.  I need to be a better daddy and be fully engaged in what they are both doing.  I did really good that neither one of them was hurt in anything they did.  I even let Ben climb into his crib and Blake's crib using one of his big toys to do so.  I think I let him do it one too many times.  I feel bad that I'm taking away Ben's source(s) of fun and excitement.  At the same time, I want to make sure that he's safe and secure in all that he does.

I had to leave for work again today.  I miss my entire family so much and I try to tell myself that what I'm doing is for the good of my family.  When I got here at work, I learned that there is a play date for my boys this coming Friday.  It is at a house that I once visited in Kennesaw, GA back in March.  I'm looking forward to that.  I edited and deleted video all day long.  I was feeling really tired and I didn't have the energy and the motivation to write for the 11PM news tonight.  I hope to do it again in two weeks after today.  The highlight of the night was when the San Jose Sharks beat the St. Louis Blues to advance to the Stanley Cup Finals for the first time.  I've been an on-again, off-again Sharks fan.  I used to wear their gear back in High School.  I have to thank my dad for finding me those things.  I'll be back for more again on Thursday.